Shadows/Doorways

It might be the lack of sleep, the caffeine wearing off, or a combination of every event that has happened in the past few days, but life feels surreal. I took in my paper work to the Manitoba Film Training office last week completing my full application for the internship to work on the production of 'Less Than Kind'. I find out in the next few days whether I have it or not, but the anticipation is killing me. If I get the internship I have a paying job for 3 months, not to mention the experience gained. But the reality of it would mean I need to get a car and cell phone. It scares me a little that I might need to go in to debt to get these things. If I don't get the job I don't have these financial obligations, but I still need to find work. And then today the radio station phones me after a month plus of radio silence. It appears they still remember that I work for them. They told me that I will be going to Steinbach on thursday to talk about more work opportunities with them as the program director is going on mat. leave. It's work, but I'm not sure if it's work I want. As well, a friend who works for Siloam Mission told me that they are looking to hire some staff and that I had come to his mind. While I was out at Cedarwood this weekend the idea danced around in my mind, positioning itself as a very viable option. This isn't a fork in the road, this is the metaphorical cousin to Winnipeg's confusion corner. And here I float in limbo unsure of where to step to. I'm just going to sit here and pray while I wait for the pieces to fall into place.



Abraham and Issac by Sam Webber


The Gaurdsman by Sam Webber